“There is a tide in the affairs of men, Which taken at the flood, leads on to fortune. Omitted, all the voyage of their life is bound in shallows and in miseries. On such a full sea are we now afloat. And we must take the current when it serves, or lose our ventures.”
Explanation:
Large ships still tend to try to leave port at high tide. Tide comes in, and tide goes out. If you try to leave port before high tide, you're going against the flow, and working twice as hard to make progress. Once it reaches high tide, the flow is going out, assuring success with minimal effort.
Caesar was noting that there are such trends and times in other endeavors as well, most particularly he was referring to politics, but his experience had shown him that it was true in military operations also.
The key to success, he is saying, is knowing that there is such a tide in all things, being able to recognize when they reach their peak, and seizing the opportunity that it affords.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Friday, November 28, 2008
Ida Scott Taylor
Once wrote: Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
I believe
I believe
That our backgrounds and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I believe
That no matter how good a friend is, they're gonna hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I believe
That just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean that they will love you with all they have.
I believe
That it takes me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I believe
That you should always leave your loved ones with loving words.It maybe the last time you will see them
I believe
That you either control your attitude or it controls you.
I believe
That money is a lousy way of keeping score.
I believe
That sometimes when i am angry i have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I believe
That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I believe
That people that you care about most in life are taken from you much too soon.
I believe
That life is more precious that money will ever be able to be.
I believe
That no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world does not stop for your grief.
That our backgrounds and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I believe
That no matter how good a friend is, they're gonna hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I believe
That just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean that they will love you with all they have.
I believe
That it takes me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I believe
That you should always leave your loved ones with loving words.It maybe the last time you will see them
I believe
That you either control your attitude or it controls you.
I believe
That money is a lousy way of keeping score.
I believe
That sometimes when i am angry i have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I believe
That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I believe
That people that you care about most in life are taken from you much too soon.
I believe
That life is more precious that money will ever be able to be.
I believe
That no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world does not stop for your grief.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Best moments in life
1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing till your stomach hurts.
3. Enjoying a ride down the country side.
4. Listening to your favorite song on the radio.
5. Going to sleep listening to the rain pouring outside.
6. Getting out of the shower and wrapping yourself with a warm, fuzzy towel.
7. Passing your final exams with good grades.
8. Being a part of an interesting conversation.
9. Finding some money in some old pants.
10. Laughing at yourself.
11. Sharing a wonderful dinner with all your friends.
12. Laughing without a reason.
13. "Accidentally" hearing someone say something good about you.
14. Watching the sunset.
15. Listening to a song that reminds you of an important person in your life.
16. Receiving or giving your first kiss.
17. Feeling this buzz in your body when seeing this "special" someone.
18. Having a great time with your friends.
19. Seeing the one you love happy.
20. Wearing the shirt of a person you love and smelling his/her perfume.
21. Visiting an old friend of yours and remembering great memories.
22. Hearing someone telling you "I LOVE YOU"
2. Laughing till your stomach hurts.
3. Enjoying a ride down the country side.
4. Listening to your favorite song on the radio.
5. Going to sleep listening to the rain pouring outside.
6. Getting out of the shower and wrapping yourself with a warm, fuzzy towel.
7. Passing your final exams with good grades.
8. Being a part of an interesting conversation.
9. Finding some money in some old pants.
10. Laughing at yourself.
11. Sharing a wonderful dinner with all your friends.
12. Laughing without a reason.
13. "Accidentally" hearing someone say something good about you.
14. Watching the sunset.
15. Listening to a song that reminds you of an important person in your life.
16. Receiving or giving your first kiss.
17. Feeling this buzz in your body when seeing this "special" someone.
18. Having a great time with your friends.
19. Seeing the one you love happy.
20. Wearing the shirt of a person you love and smelling his/her perfume.
21. Visiting an old friend of yours and remembering great memories.
22. Hearing someone telling you "I LOVE YOU"
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Is it ever the same?
i realized that a person never really gets over their first true love.
i mean, you believe that you are gonna spend the rest of your life with someone,
that they are the one,
and when you are gonna start over again with someone new
is it ever the same?
i mean, you believe that you are gonna spend the rest of your life with someone,
that they are the one,
and when you are gonna start over again with someone new
is it ever the same?
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Semantics Of Life
What are the semantics of life?
I wonder, is it merely a program that governs us on how to live our life?
Is the code unbreakable or are we suppose to succumb to it?
They say that we always have a choice. We can either choose to live life according to someone else’s opinion of it or we can neglect our traditions, cultures and religion and just be the person you want to be. But who will u be without any of those elements? U will only be just another face with a name. The way to live life is already passed on from one generation to the other. Thus it’s not that easy to be the black sheep and do as you desire. But is there a way to break this trend and do whatever you want, without having a sense of guilt?
I wonder, is it merely a program that governs us on how to live our life?
Is the code unbreakable or are we suppose to succumb to it?
They say that we always have a choice. We can either choose to live life according to someone else’s opinion of it or we can neglect our traditions, cultures and religion and just be the person you want to be. But who will u be without any of those elements? U will only be just another face with a name. The way to live life is already passed on from one generation to the other. Thus it’s not that easy to be the black sheep and do as you desire. But is there a way to break this trend and do whatever you want, without having a sense of guilt?
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Life
They say we leave this world just the way we came into it
naked and alone
so if we do leave with nothing
what then is the measure of a life
is it defined by the people we choose to love
or life's simply measured by our accomplishments
and what if we fail or never truly loved
what then?
can we ever measure up
or the quite desperation of a life of wanting drives us mad
naked and alone
so if we do leave with nothing
what then is the measure of a life
is it defined by the people we choose to love
or life's simply measured by our accomplishments
and what if we fail or never truly loved
what then?
can we ever measure up
or the quite desperation of a life of wanting drives us mad
Alone
My life is in an empty house or
in a crowded restaurant
and i don't know which one makes me feel
more alone...
in a crowded restaurant
and i don't know which one makes me feel
more alone...
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
The Fringe Benefits of Failure, and the Importance of Imagination
Harvard University Commencement Address
J.K. Rowling
Copyright June 2008
As prepared for delivery
President Faust, members of the Harvard Corporation and the Board of Overseers, members of the faculty, proud parents, and, above all, graduates.
The first thing I would like to say is ‘thank you.’ Not only has Harvard given me an extraordinary honour, but the weeks of fear and nausea I’ve experienced at the thought of giving this commencement address have made me lose weight. A win-win situation! Now all I have to do is take deep breaths, squint at the red banners and fool myself into believing I am at the world’s best-educated Harry Potter convention.
Delivering a commencement address is a great responsibility; or so I thought until I cast my mind back to my own graduation. The commencement speaker that day was the distinguished British philosopher Baroness Mary Warnock. Reflecting on her speech has helped me enormously in writing this one, because it turns out that I can’t remember a single word she said. This liberating discovery enables me to proceed without any fear that I might inadvertently influence you to abandon promising careers in business, law or politics for the giddy delights of becoming a gay wizard.
You see? If all you remember in years to come is the ‘gay wizard’ joke, I’ve still come out ahead of Baroness Mary Warnock. Achievable goals: the first step towards personal improvement.
Actually, I have wracked my mind and heart for what I ought to say to you today. I have asked myself what I wish I had known at my own graduation, and what important lessons I have learned in the 21 years that has expired between that day and this.
I have come up with two answers. On this wonderful day when we are gathered together to celebrate your academic success, I have decided to talk to you about the benefits of failure. And as you stand on the threshold of what is sometimes called ‘real life’, I want to extol the crucial importance of imagination.
These might seem quixotic or paradoxical choices, but please bear with me.
Looking back at the 21-year-old that I was at graduation, is a slightly uncomfortable experience for the 42-year-old that she has become. Half my lifetime ago, I was striking an uneasy balance between the ambition I had for myself, and what those closest to me expected of me.
I was convinced that the only thing I wanted to do, ever, was to write novels. However, my parents, both of whom came from impoverished backgrounds and neither of whom had been to college, took the view that my overactive imagination was an amusing personal quirk that could never pay a mortgage, or secure a pension.
They had hoped that I would take a vocational degree; I wanted to study English Literature. A compromise was reached that in retrospect satisfied nobody, and I went up to study Modern Languages. Hardly had my parents’ car rounded the corner at the end of the road than I ditched German and scuttled off down the Classics corridor.
I cannot remember telling my parents that I was studying Classics; they might well have found out for the first time on graduation day. Of all subjects on this planet, I think they would have been hard put to name one less useful than Greek mythology when it came to securing the keys to an executive bathroom.
I would like to make it clear, in parenthesis, that I do not blame my parents for their point of view. There is an expiry date on blaming your parents for steering you in the wrong direction; the moment you are old enough to take the wheel, responsibility lies with you. What is more, I cannot criticise my parents for hoping that I would never experience poverty. They had been poor themselves, and I have since been poor, and I quite agree with them that it is not an ennobling experience. Poverty entails fear, and stress, and sometimes depression; it means a thousand petty humiliations and hardships. Climbing out of poverty by your own efforts, that is indeed something on which to pride yourself, but poverty itself is romanticised only by fools.
What I feared most for myself at your age was not poverty, but failure.
At your age, in spite of a distinct lack of motivation at university, where I had spent far too long in the coffee bar writing stories, and far too little time at lectures, I had a knack for passing examinations, and that, for years, had been the measure of success in my life and that of my peers.
I am not dull enough to suppose that because you are young, gifted and well-educated, you have never known hardship or heartbreak. Talent and intelligence never yet inoculated anyone against the caprice of the Fates, and I do not for a moment suppose that everyone here has enjoyed an existence of unruffled privilege and contentment.
However, the fact that you are graduating from Harvard suggests that you are not very well-acquainted with failure. You might be driven by a fear of failure quite as much as a desire for success. Indeed, your conception of failure might not be too far from the average person’s idea of success, so high have you already flown academically.
Ultimately, we all have to decide for ourselves what constitutes failure, but the world is quite eager to give you a set of criteria if you let it. So I think it fair to say that by any conventional measure, a mere seven years after my graduation day, I had failed on an epic scale. An exceptionally short-lived marriage had imploded, and I was jobless, a lone parent, and as poor as it is possible to be in modern Britain, without being homeless. The fears my parents had had for me, and that I had had for myself, had both come to pass, and by every usual standard, I was the biggest failure I knew.
Now, I am not going to stand here and tell you that failure is fun. That period of my life was a dark one, and I had no idea that there was going to be what the press has since represented as a kind of fairy tale resolution. I had no idea how far the tunnel extended, and for a long time, any light at the end of it was a hope rather than a reality.
So why do I talk about the benefits of failure? Simply because failure meant a stripping away of the inessential. I stopped pretending to myself that I was anything other than what I was, and began to direct all my energy into finishing the only work that mattered to me. Had I really succeeded at anything else, I might never have found the determination to succeed in the one arena I believed I truly belonged. I was set free, because my greatest fear had already been realised, and I was still alive, and I still had a daughter whom I adored, and I had an old typewriter and a big idea. And so rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.
You might never fail on the scale I did, but some failure in life is inevitable. It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all - in which case, you fail by default.
Failure gave me an inner security that I had never attained by passing examinations. Failure taught me things about myself that I could have learned no other way. I discovered that I had a strong will, and more discipline than I had suspected; I also found out that I had friends whose value was truly above rubies.
The knowledge that you have emerged wiser and stronger from setbacks means that you are, ever after, secure in your ability to survive. You will never truly know yourself, or the strength of your relationships, until both have been tested by adversity. Such knowledge is a true gift, for all that it is painfully won, and it has been worth more to me than any qualification I ever earned.
Given a time machine or a Time Turner, I would tell my 21-year-old self that personal happiness lies in knowing that life is not a check-list of acquisition or achievement. Your qualifications, your CV, are not your life, though you will meet many people of my age and older who confuse the two. Life is difficult, and complicated, and beyond anyone’s total control, and the humility to know that will enable you to survive its vicissitudes.
You might think that I chose my second theme, the importance of imagination, because of the part it played in rebuilding my life, but that is not wholly so. Though I will defend the value of bedtime stories to my last gasp, I have learned to value imagination in a much broader sense. Imagination is not only the uniquely human capacity to envision that which is not, and therefore the fount of all invention and innovation. In its arguably most transformative and revelatory capacity, it is the power that enables us to empathise with humans whose experiences we have never shared.
One of the greatest formative experiences of my life preceded Harry Potter, though it informed much of what I subsequently wrote in those books. This revelation came in the form of one of my earliest day jobs. Though I was sloping off to write stories during my lunch hours, I paid the rent in my early 20s by working in the research department at Amnesty International’s headquarters in London.
There in my little office I read hastily scribbled letters smuggled out of totalitarian regimes by men and women who were risking imprisonment to inform the outside world of what was happening to them. I saw photographs of those who had disappeared without trace, sent to Amnesty by their desperate families and friends. I read the testimony of torture victims and saw pictures of their injuries. I opened handwritten, eye-witness accounts of summary trials and executions, of kidnappings and rapes.
Many of my co-workers were ex-political prisoners, people who had been displaced from their homes, or fled into exile, because they had the temerity to think independently of their government. Visitors to our office included those who had come to give information, or to try and find out what had happened to those they had been forced to leave behind.
I shall never forget the African torture victim, a young man no older than I was at the time, who had become mentally ill after all he had endured in his homeland. He trembled uncontrollably as he spoke into a video camera about the brutality inflicted upon him. He was a foot taller than I was, and seemed as fragile as a child. I was given the job of escorting him to the Underground Station afterwards, and this man whose life had been shattered by cruelty took my hand with exquisite courtesy, and wished me future happiness.
And as long as I live I shall remember walking along an empty corridor and suddenly hearing, from behind a closed door, a scream of pain and horror such as I have never heard since. The door opened, and the researcher poked out her head and told me to run and make a hot drink for the young man sitting with her. She had just given him the news that in retaliation for his own outspokenness against his country’s regime, his mother had been seized and executed.
Every day of my working week in my early 20s I was reminded how incredibly fortunate I was, to live in a country with a democratically elected government, where legal representation and a public trial were the rights of everyone.
Every day, I saw more evidence about the evils humankind will inflict on their fellow humans, to gain or maintain power. I began to have nightmares, literal nightmares, about some of the things I saw, heard and read.
And yet I also learned more about human goodness at Amnesty International than I had ever known before.
Amnesty mobilises thousands of people who have never been tortured or imprisoned for their beliefs to act on behalf of those who have. The power of human empathy, leading to collective action, saves lives, and frees prisoners. Ordinary people, whose personal well-being and security are assured, join together in huge numbers to save people they do not know, and will never meet. My small participation in that process was one of the most humbling and inspiring experiences of my life.
Unlike any other creature on this planet, humans can learn and understand, without having experienced. They can think themselves into other people’s minds, imagine themselves into other people’s places.
Of course, this is a power, like my brand of fictional magic, that is morally neutral. One might use such an ability to manipulate, or control, just as much as to understand or sympathise.
And many prefer not to exercise their imaginations at all. They choose to remain comfortably within the bounds of their own experience, never troubling to wonder how it would feel to have been born other than they are. They can refuse to hear screams or to peer inside cages; they can close their minds and hearts to any suffering that does not touch them personally; they can refuse to know.
I might be tempted to envy people who can live that way, except that I do not think they have any fewer nightmares than I do. Choosing to live in narrow spaces can lead to a form of mental agoraphobia, and that brings its own terrors. I think the wilfully unimaginative see more monsters. They are often more afraid.
What is more, those who choose not to empathise may enable real monsters. For without ever committing an act of outright evil ourselves, we collude with it, through our own apathy.
One of the many things I learned at the end of that Classics corridor down which I ventured at the age of 18, in search of something I could not then define, was this, written by the Greek author Plutarch: What we achieve inwardly will change outer reality.
That is an astonishing statement and yet proven a thousand times every day of our lives. It expresses, in part, our inescapable connection with the outside world, the fact that we touch other people’s lives simply by existing.
But how much more are you, Harvard graduates of 2008, likely to touch other people’s lives? Your intelligence, your capacity for hard work, the education you have earned and received, give you unique status, and unique responsibilities. Even your nationality sets you apart. The great majority of you belong to the world’s only remaining superpower. The way you vote, the way you live, the way you protest, the pressure you bring to bear on your government, has an impact way beyond your borders. That is your privilege, and your burden.
If you choose to use your status and influence to raise your voice on behalf of those who have no voice; if you choose to identify not only with the powerful, but with the powerless; if you retain the ability to imagine yourself into the lives of those who do not have your advantages, then it will not only be your proud families who celebrate your existence, but thousands and millions of people whose reality you have helped transform for the better. We do not need magic to change the world, we carry all the power we need inside ourselves already: we have the power to imagine better.
I am nearly finished. I have one last hope for you, which is something that I already had at 21. The friends with whom I sat on graduation day have been my friends for life. They are my children’s godparents, the people to whom I’ve been able to turn in times of trouble, friends who have been kind enough not to sue me when I’ve used their names for Death Eaters. At our graduation we were bound by enormous affection, by our shared experience of a time that could never come again, and, of course, by the knowledge that we held certain photographic evidence that would be exceptionally valuable if any of us ran for Prime Minister.
So today, I can wish you nothing better than similar friendships. And tomorrow, I hope that even if you remember not a single word of mine, you remember those of Seneca, another of those old Romans I met when I fled down the Classics corridor, in retreat from career ladders, in search of ancient wisdom:
As is a tale, so is life: not how long it is, but how good it is, is what matters.
I wish you all very good lives.
Thank you very much.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
The Hardest Part...
The hardest part of saying goodbye
is having to do it again every single day.
Everyday we face the same truth
That life is fleeting
That our time here is short
And to honor the fallen
We must live our own lives well...
is having to do it again every single day.
Everyday we face the same truth
That life is fleeting
That our time here is short
And to honor the fallen
We must live our own lives well...
Friday, September 26, 2008
Heart Breaks
When your heart breaks, you've got to fight like hell to make sure you're still alive. Because you are, and that pain you feel...that's life. The confusion and fear, that's there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better, and that something is worth fighting for.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Is this it??
I'm utterly pissed.
I seriously don't know the cause of it yet.
But it seems that i basically hate how my life has turned out to be.
Its not what i thought that i would turn out be after so many years.
i just hate the way life is at the moment.
i wish that i could change them.
maybe i can, or maybe i cant due to the consequences.
I'm always reminded by the cause and the effect theory.
several years ago i wouldn't even let anything affect the way i live my life
but now its all different.
people change, places change, basically everything changes except the way i feel still remains the same.
things have changed during the course of time.
i don't know where to go from here.
is this it??
I seriously don't know the cause of it yet.
But it seems that i basically hate how my life has turned out to be.
Its not what i thought that i would turn out be after so many years.
i just hate the way life is at the moment.
i wish that i could change them.
maybe i can, or maybe i cant due to the consequences.
I'm always reminded by the cause and the effect theory.
several years ago i wouldn't even let anything affect the way i live my life
but now its all different.
people change, places change, basically everything changes except the way i feel still remains the same.
things have changed during the course of time.
i don't know where to go from here.
is this it??
Saturday, September 20, 2008
The Last GoodBye IV: First and Last Time
dear ......,
This the story of the first and last time i ever fell in love and of the handsome, complicated, fascinating man who inhabits my soul. I'm pretty sure that you're gonna leave me tomorrow. so i better say this while i have the chance.
whether we are together or apart,
you will always be the man of my life,
the only woman i will ever envy is the woman who wins your heart and i will always believe that it was my destiny to be that woman
if we never see each other again, you're out walking one day and you feel a certain presence beside you
that would be me loving you where ever i am...
Happy Bday.
This the story of the first and last time i ever fell in love and of the handsome, complicated, fascinating man who inhabits my soul. I'm pretty sure that you're gonna leave me tomorrow. so i better say this while i have the chance.
whether we are together or apart,
you will always be the man of my life,
the only woman i will ever envy is the woman who wins your heart and i will always believe that it was my destiny to be that woman
if we never see each other again, you're out walking one day and you feel a certain presence beside you
that would be me loving you where ever i am...
Happy Bday.
Friday, September 19, 2008
Dependency
i recently attended a birthday treat of one of my closest friends. all of her friends, her batch mates and i was there. i came late for the treat, but as i knew everyone who attended it, it really didn't make any difference. as i was sitting there in the middle of a restaurant with familiar faces, i was completely void. i felt so empty, so lonely and so devoid of emotion that i just felt like getting up and leaving. due to obvious reasons i couldn't do that. but all i did was have lunch and spend like half an hour with them, without uttering a so much as a word and left. its like i used be valued and now I'm not anymore. that kinda hit me hard. no one is there for you apart from yourself. you cant depend on others or anyone for anything.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Fit In
Don’t be too fat or too thin
Or too dark or too light
Don’t be too sexual or too chased
Or too smart or too dumb
Just be yourself
But make sure you fit in
Or too dark or too light
Don’t be too sexual or too chased
Or too smart or too dumb
Just be yourself
But make sure you fit in
Whole World
My whole world’s being ripped away from me... and all I can do is sit here and watch it happen.
Grief
Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore?
If you were suddenly gone.How would your world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There is nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the ocean. Its deep and dark and bigger than all of us - and pain is like a thief in the night, quiet, persistent, unfair, and diminished by time and faith and love.
If you were suddenly gone.How would your world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There is nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the ocean. Its deep and dark and bigger than all of us - and pain is like a thief in the night, quiet, persistent, unfair, and diminished by time and faith and love.
Life is too short
Life is too short. To fight. To be miserable. Don't let the bitter ones change how awesome you are.
Friday, September 12, 2008
Lessons
All you have to do is to pay attention; lessons always arrive when you are ready, and if you can read the signs, you will learn everything you need to know in order to take the next step.We humans have two great problems: the first is knowing when to begin; the second is knowing when to stop.
Freedom
Freedom is not the absence of commitments, but the ability to choose—and commit myself to—what is best for me.
That's what they all say...isn't it?
People that are meant to be together always find their way in the end.
Unconditional Love
They give their hearts to each other unconditionally ...that's what true love really is. It's not this fairy tale life that never knows pain, but it's two souls facing it together and diminishing it with unconditional love.
Nothing Else Matters
...Yesterday was a great day and I'm sitting on the bus and I realize that none of my great days in my life matter without you. You're the one I want next to me when my dreams come true and you're the one I want next to me if they don't. As long as I have you... nothing else matters.
Saturday, September 6, 2008
The story of my life
I have truly been in love once
The most amazing person in the world.
He was my best friend.
but i was young, stupid and i messed it up
In my great list of mistakes,
that was the greatest.
and when i finally realized how stupid i was
i decided to fight for it
but i was too late
he wouldn't take me back,
he was right,
i never really was too late...
The most amazing person in the world.
He was my best friend.
but i was young, stupid and i messed it up
In my great list of mistakes,
that was the greatest.
and when i finally realized how stupid i was
i decided to fight for it
but i was too late
he wouldn't take me back,
he was right,
i never really was too late...
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Fear
When I was young, I couldn't sleep at night because I thought there was a monster in the closet. But my brother told me there wasn't anything in the closet but fear. And fear wasn't real. H said it wasn't made of anything, it was just- air... not even there. He said you just have to face it. You just have to open that door, and the monster would disappear.
But in here, though, you face your fear, you open that door... and there's 100 more doors behind it. And the monsters that are hiding behind them... are all real.
But in here, though, you face your fear, you open that door... and there's 100 more doors behind it. And the monsters that are hiding behind them... are all real.
Summer Love
They say summer love is fleeting. But sometimes what starts as a fling, can lead to the real thing. A simple trip to the beach can be all it takes to clear our heads and open our heads, and write a new ending to an old story. There are those who got burned by the heat. They just want to forget and start over. While there are others who want each moment to last forever. But everyone can agreed on one thing - tans fade, highlights go dark, and we all get sick of getting sand in our shoes. But summer is the beginning of a new season, so we find ourselves looking to the future. You ain't seen nothin' yet.
Friday, August 29, 2008
Life in four pictures
First Pic
Break of Dawn -- New lease of life, embarking upon a New Voyage......
A Child Flying Kite -- Young Blood, Aspiring to Fly High with Enormous Zest n Zeal...Coz U Know, Sky is The Limit......
A Small Tree -- Need to Nurture.......
Two Birds Hovering Above -- There r People Around to Take Ample Care of You, You r Actually Carefree.......
Second Pic
Daylight -- You r Almost Halfway Through in This Voyage Called Life.....
Couple -- You Have a Better half of Yours to Lean Upon n Speak Your Heart Out to......
Grown-up Tree -- You Have Been Nurtured Profusely to Stand Tall n Rigidly in The Storms That May, Otherwise, Let U Down........ .
A Small Tree -- You, Together With Your Better half, Have Given a New Lease of Life to Another Breaking Dawn (Your Child).........
One Bird Hovering Above -- There r Comparatively Less People around You to Take Care of You, Unlike during Your Wonder Childhood Years.......
Third Pic
Fall of Dusk -- Twilight is setting Upon, Life Has Come a Full Circle....
An Old Man -- It's a Race Against Time Now On, It's The Beginning of The End of The Voyage......
Ageing Tree -- Signifies The Above Two Things, Second One Being The Personification of This........
Grown Tree -- Your Kids Have Grown Up; It's High Time You Start Supporting Them With Tender Care Rather Than Clashes..........
One Bird -- Self Explanatory, I Guess???
Grave -- In Course of The Voyage You Have Lost Loved Ones n You Also Start to Anticipate Your Ultimate Fate n Destiny..........
Fourth Pic
Nightfall -- Voyage is Over, Darkness is Looming Over, High Time to Say Good Bye....
Starry Sky -- There's Still Happiness Around, Thanks to The Aesthetic Memories Left by You n The Good Work Done Too..... .
Grown-up Tree -- Your Kids r Walking in Your Shoes now, It's For Them to Follow Your Footsteps Drawing Inspiration From Your Exemplary Life..
Grave With Two Crosses -- You r United with Your Soul mates n RIPS........
Monday, August 25, 2008
Someone's watching over me...
Someone told me he listens to this song whenever he was feeling blue. Thanks buddy. I hope i can rise from the ashes.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Saturday, August 16, 2008
All of a sudden I miss everyone
What happened to us?
You know,
I don't know who I am anymore
or how I got here
I miss who I used to be
I wanna have a home again,
and real friends
you know the kind of friendship that we used to believe in
i miss that
and i miss you
i guess i miss all of it
You know,
I don't know who I am anymore
or how I got here
I miss who I used to be
I wanna have a home again,
and real friends
you know the kind of friendship that we used to believe in
i miss that
and i miss you
i guess i miss all of it
Friday, August 15, 2008
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Friday, August 8, 2008
Monday, August 4, 2008
Monday, July 28, 2008
Love Santa
maybe
the whole love thing
is just a grown-up version
of Santa Claus
just a myth we've been fed
since childhood
so we keep buying magazines
and joining clubs
and doing therapy
and watching movies
with hit pop songs
played over love montages
all in this pathetic attempt
to explain why our love Santa
keeps getting caught
in the chimney.
the whole love thing
is just a grown-up version
of Santa Claus
just a myth we've been fed
since childhood
so we keep buying magazines
and joining clubs
and doing therapy
and watching movies
with hit pop songs
played over love montages
all in this pathetic attempt
to explain why our love Santa
keeps getting caught
in the chimney.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Losing hope...
The last thing that I thought that I would never lose was "Hope". Well I guess I'm shocked to say that I have lost it. It's the hardest and toughest thing to lose. Whenever I have had nothing to hold onto, I always had “Hope” to get me through each day. Now I have lost the last bullet that I had left to live. I don’t see a point in living anymore. I have lost the purpose of life, the reason to live...
Friday, July 25, 2008
To people who are still holding on:
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be, and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it.
If that person doesn’t worth it now, it’s not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now.
If that person doesn’t worth it now, it’s not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now.
To people who are possesive:
It breaks your heart to see the one you love
Happy with someone else
But it's more painful to know that the one you love
Is unhappy with you.
Happy with someone else
But it's more painful to know that the one you love
Is unhappy with you.
To people who are heartbroken:
Heartbreaks last as long as you want
and cut as deep as you allow them to go
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks
But to learn from them.
and cut as deep as you allow them to go
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks
But to learn from them.
To people who are single:
Love is like a butterfly.
The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, It will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love is only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it.
So take your time and choose the best.
The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, It will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love is only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it.
So take your time and choose the best.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
One word
It's been said that there is one word that will free us from all the weight and pain of life, and that word is love, and I believe that. It doesn't mean that it hasn't been hard or that it won't be, it just means that I found a stillness and bravery in myself with you. You make me brave and I will love you always.
Don't belong
Sometimes I feel incredibly disconnected, uncomfortable in my own skin. Or kind of like I don't fit into this world. Like I was born at the wrong time, and I don't belong.
Owe
Life is short and opportunities are rare. And we have to be vigilant in protecting them and not only the opportunities to succeed but the opportunity to laugh , to see the enchantment and to live. Because life doesn't owe us anything, In fact I think we owe something to the world.
A dagger to the heart
The hardest part is
A dagger to the heart
Its when the dreams pass you by
and you've made all these excuses
why it didn’t happen
and then, one day
you have that epiphany,
we just weren’t good enough
we can have the goods
I mean if we did
well, we wouldn't be here would we?
A dagger to the heart
Its when the dreams pass you by
and you've made all these excuses
why it didn’t happen
and then, one day
you have that epiphany,
we just weren’t good enough
we can have the goods
I mean if we did
well, we wouldn't be here would we?
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
The Last Goodbye Part III: Thick and Thin
We have been through thick and thin, but we never let go of each other. We always stayed close and we didn’t let anything or anyone come between us. That’s what I appreciated the most. You’re the only one who saw me for who I am, not from where I came from or what I have done in the past. You believed in me. It’s because of that, that I am the person I’ve become. You showed me so many things and I have learned numerous things from you.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Strange
It's a strange world when the least important thing is doing well and the most important thing is just hanging on.
I gave you my heart...
I gave you my heart , That's all I can give to you , If that's not enough for you , then I'm not enough for you.
Misery
I've spent a lot of time being miserable. It's like misery's an old friend. And it tricks you sometimes into thinking that it's just always gonna be there, that you can't be happy. But you can. You can walk away from pain, and I think being in love's the best way to do it.
Fit In
Don't be too fat, or too thin, or too dark, or too light; don't be too sexual, or too chaste, or too smart, or too dumb. Be yourself. But make sure you fit in.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
The journey is the destination
Looking back on what I said all those years ago, all the hopes and dreams I had, I've come to the conclusion that if having things turn out the way you wanted them to is a measure of a successful life, then some would say I'm a failure. The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past. And recognize that every day won't be sunny, and when you find yourself lost in the darkness and despair, remember it's only in the black of night you see the stars. And those stars will lead you back home. So don't be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, cause most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you wish for. Maybe you'll get more than you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you. The road is long and in the end, the journey is the destination.
A promise
Remember tonight. For it is the beginning of always. A Promise, like an award for persisting through life all alone. The belief in each other & the possibility of love. A decision to ignore or simply rise above the pain of the past. A covenant which at once binds two souls & severe prior ties. A celebration with the chance taken, and the challenge that lies ahead. With two will always be stronger than one, like a team risen up against the tempest of the world. And love will always be the guiding force in our lives. For tonight is a mere formality, only an announcement of feelings long held, promises made long ago in the sacred space of our hearts.
Give your heart
If you're always looking for reason's not to be with somebody, then you'll always find them. And I guess at some point you should let go of that and give your heart what it deserves
Lyric People Vs Music People
I've got this theory that there are 2 types of people in this world. There are lyric people and there are music people. You know the lyric people tend to be analytical...all about the meaning of the song. They're the ones you see with of the CD insert out like 5 minutes after buying it, pouring over the lyrics, interpreting the hell out of everything. Then there's the music people,who could care less about the lyrics as long as it's got a good beat and you can dance to it. I don't know, sometimes it might be easier to be a music girl and not a lyric girl. But since I'm not just let me say this: Sometimes things find you when you need them to find you. I believe that and for me it's usually song lyrics.
Why do relationships have to be so hard?
Why do relationships have to be so hard?
Because being alone is even harder.
Because being alone is even harder.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Blah, Blah, Blah...
life is just blah blah blah
you hope for blah
and sometimes you find it
but mostly its blah
and waiting for blah
and hoping you were right about the blahs you've made
and then just when you think you've got the whole blah dame thing figured out
and you are surrounded by the ones you blah
death shows up
and blah blah blah...
you hope for blah
and sometimes you find it
but mostly its blah
and waiting for blah
and hoping you were right about the blahs you've made
and then just when you think you've got the whole blah dame thing figured out
and you are surrounded by the ones you blah
death shows up
and blah blah blah...
The Last Goodbye Part II: Move on
I know that people have to move on and all the crap, but that doesn’t help me cope with all this. I guess I can’t eat the cake and have the cake. I miss doing the simplest things that we used to do. Like remember there was once we went out for a drive and we stopped at the beach somewhere near your place, and you made me walk a mile on the beach. That was fun in an odd sort of way. I guess I hated that you made me do it but I felt great afterward, as now I realize that those are the things I miss the most. We used to go to the pier and just stop the car and watch the boats in the harbor, the sea and just talk about stuff. We used to walk from the library and wait until you get your ride home. I miss the drives we had, every Thursday when you bring the car. I miss the times when we went to watch movies and all the walks we used to have around town after lectures. Don’t you miss those times?
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
The Last Goodbye Part I
I miss you. Everyday. I miss the conversations we used to have. I miss having someone around to listen. I miss the feeling of being me when I’m with you. Ever since we went our separate ways, I have become a mess. I still am. I still regret the fact that I left so soon, I just wish that I can take it back and spend more time with you. The main reason that I felt that I should leave was I couldn’t handle the fact that you have finally found someone and you were slipping away from me. I just couldn’t do anything about it. I was helpless. So I thought that the best way to solve this was by leaving you. I guess that made your life much easier. In a way I’m glad that it had to be that way and I would be completely lying if I told you this. That day was one of the days that I would regret most for the rest of my life.
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Thursday, July 3, 2008
The rest of your life
You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck or bad choices.
Or you can fight back.
Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world. That's just the way it is.
But for the most part, you get what you give.
Rest of your life is being shaped right now. With the dreams you chase....The choices you make....and the person you decide to be.
The rest of your life is a long time. And the rest of your life starts right now.
Or you can fight back.
Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world. That's just the way it is.
But for the most part, you get what you give.
Rest of your life is being shaped right now. With the dreams you chase....The choices you make....and the person you decide to be.
The rest of your life is a long time. And the rest of your life starts right now.
Diaries
Someone once said; 'It’s the good girls who keep diaries. The bad girls never have the time. Me… I just wanna live a life I’m gonna remember. Even if I don’t write it down.
The person you are...
And Hansel said to Gretel, 'Let us drop these breadcrumbs... so that together we find our way home. Because losing our way would be the most cruel of things.' This year.. I lost my way.
And losing your way on a journey is unfortunate. But, losing your reason for the journey... is a fate more cruel.
The journey lasted eight months. Sometimes I traveled alone, sometimes, there were others who took the wheel -- and took my heart. But when the destination was reached, it wasn’t me who arrived...it wasn't me at all.
And once you lose yourself, you have two choices: find the person you used to be... or lose that person completely.
Because, sometimes, you have to step outside of the person you've been. And remember the person you were meant to be. The person you wanted to be. The person you are.
And losing your way on a journey is unfortunate. But, losing your reason for the journey... is a fate more cruel.
The journey lasted eight months. Sometimes I traveled alone, sometimes, there were others who took the wheel -- and took my heart. But when the destination was reached, it wasn’t me who arrived...it wasn't me at all.
And once you lose yourself, you have two choices: find the person you used to be... or lose that person completely.
Because, sometimes, you have to step outside of the person you've been. And remember the person you were meant to be. The person you wanted to be. The person you are.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Could we be forgiven...
Today marks the first day that someone special walked away from my life without saying a word. I know that we had our differences, but I never thought that it would ever end up like this. sometimes I wish I could go back to the days that we were far away from this place, where we used to live before. Things were so different back then. we were united, strong, and happy. Although we had certain differences and we have faced so many rough paths on the way, but that did not matter as we were always understood each other.
I know that there are times that we do certain things and we always were given forgiven no matter what in the end, but today I do not feel like that. It seems that we have done something so bad that it could not be forgiven. I hope that's not the case. I know that everyone has their way of dealing with being patient. I think that we have crossed that line today.
Could we be forgiven...
I know that there are times that we do certain things and we always were given forgiven no matter what in the end, but today I do not feel like that. It seems that we have done something so bad that it could not be forgiven. I hope that's not the case. I know that everyone has their way of dealing with being patient. I think that we have crossed that line today.
Could we be forgiven...
Friday, June 27, 2008
Journey
If some lives form a perfect circle, other take shape in ways we cannot predict or always understand. Loss has been part of my journey. But it has also shown me what is precious. So has love for which I can only be grateful.
In a flash
Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone.
That's always been enough...
I am nothing special; just a common person with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough.
My Dearest,
I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you...
Love,
Love,
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
Lost
I cant really remember when was the last time I felt like this. I'm completely lost. I seriously don't know what to do with my life, where to turn to or who should i turn to? I always feel that one way or another, people judge me too much. I don't want to be judged not right now at least. It seems that the world that I have build for the last couple of years and the hard work I have put in is going to waste right in front of my eyes. I'm shameless to say that I can't do anything about it.
I'm so tired of living up to peoples expectations. They have expected so much from me that I don't really live up to their standards. What happens when I fail. Like the way I have been failing all this time. No matter how hard I try there just seem to be no way out of this.
U know whats the worst that can happen. Its when u failed and someone who has done everything in their power to make u the person u r now and who has worked hard to get u to where u are, just looks up and ask u "What have been doing all this time?".
I felt shattered when that someone special asked me that. suddenly all that I have done was lost for that second. everything that I have done seemed to be a waste of time, money and energy.
And now I am left without nothing but a shattered version of myself and bruised ego. Everything that I am was lost within a second...
why...
I'm so tired of living up to peoples expectations. They have expected so much from me that I don't really live up to their standards. What happens when I fail. Like the way I have been failing all this time. No matter how hard I try there just seem to be no way out of this.
U know whats the worst that can happen. Its when u failed and someone who has done everything in their power to make u the person u r now and who has worked hard to get u to where u are, just looks up and ask u "What have been doing all this time?".
I felt shattered when that someone special asked me that. suddenly all that I have done was lost for that second. everything that I have done seemed to be a waste of time, money and energy.
And now I am left without nothing but a shattered version of myself and bruised ego. Everything that I am was lost within a second...
why...
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Ever ask yourself why a vampire has no reflection in a mirror?
Be too painful. To see himself year after year, century after century, unchanged while everything around him grows old. To search for love but to know it's always just out of your reach. Because to be human is to die. To die is what makes life worth living. It's God's joke.
Friday, June 13, 2008
Nothings and Somethings
The odd thing about this form of communication is that you're more likely to talk about nothing than something. But I just want to say that all this nothing has meant more to me than so many somethings.
Worst version of yourself
Have you ever become the worst version of yourself. That a Pandora's box of all the hateful things, your spite, your arrogance, your condescension has sprung open? Someone upsets you and instead of smiling and walking away... you zing them. "Hello it's Mr Nasty". I'm sure you have no idea what I'm talking about...
Change
People always say that change is a good thing, but what it really means is that something that you didn't want to happen, has happened.
Dear Void
Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life. Well, not small, but valuable. And sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around? I don't really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So good night, dear void.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Where we belong?
I wonder, do we all know where we belong? And if we do, in our hearts, why do we so often do nothing about it? There must be more to this life, a purpose for us all, a place to belong. You were my home. I knew from the moment I met you, that night, so many years ago.
Constant
You know the great thing, though, is that change can be so constant you don't even feel the difference until there is one. It can be so slow that you don't even notice that your life is better or worse, until it is. Or it can just blow you away, make you something different in an instant. It happened to me.
The perfect blossom
The perfect blossom is a rare thing. You could spend your life looking for one, and it would not be a wasted life.
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Hiding
We all live in hiding. In one way or another, each of us conceals pieces of ourselves from the rest of the world. Some people hide because their lives depend on it. Others because they don't like being seen. And then there are those special cases, the ones who hide because... because... because they just want someone to care enough to look for them
Named before or after me...
check this site out. i cant believe my name is used to name a mushroom, but as long as it helps mankind i guess i'm ok with that even though i don't have a say in this matter.
http://www.mychaga.com/whychaga.aspx
http://www.mychaga.com/whychaga.aspx
Monday, June 2, 2008
10 things I hate about you
I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.
Something closer to pleasure...
It's the wildest effort when you know what's going to happen. Will watching a person's fate give it purpose? Or is it just the muted feeling of watching a movie when you know how it ends? And then something happens that I will never forget - I'm wrong. For the first time ever, fate takes a detour and I glimpse something strange and new. A future where anything can happen. It's a beautiful thing. And the feeling it gives me is as close as I've ever felt... to pleasure.
Destiny
When you can see the future, you think you're capable of changing it. But you're just a witness to coming moments, unable to help, even if you wanted to and maybe you don't. Sometimes you think you're supposed to learn something, about patience or distance, but in the end it's all about discipline. Seeing things you don't always want to and just moving on. After a while things become easier. Your dream keeps your mind from wandering. You begin to accept things as they are. Every man has his destiny. You can't escape it, even if you can see it coming.
True Love redefined...
It always fascinated me how people go from loving you madly to nothing at all, nothing. It hurts so much. When I feel someone is going to leave me, I have a tendency to break up first before I get to hear the whole thing. Here it is. One more, one less. Another wasted love story. I really love this one. When I think that its over, that I'll never see him again like this... well yes, I'll bump into him, we'll meet our new boyfriend and girlfriend, act as if we had never been together, then we'll slowly think of each other less and less until we forget each other completely. Almost. Always the same for me. Break up, break down. Drunk up, fool around. Meet one guy, then another, f*** around. Forget the one and only. Then after a few months of total emptiness start again to look for true love, desperately look everywhere and after two years of loneliness meet a new love and swear it is the one, until that one is gone as well. There's a moment in life where you can't recover any more from another break-up. And even if this person bugs you sixty percent of the time, well you still can’t live without him. And even if he wakes you up every day by sneezing right in your face, well you love his sneezes more than anyone else's kisses.
Reincarnation
50,000 years ago, there are not even a million people on the planet. 10,000 years ago, there's, like, two million people on the planet. Now there's between five and six billion people on the planet, right? Now, if we all have our own, like, individual, unique soul, right, where do they all come from? You know, are modern souls only a fraction of the original souls? 'Cause if they are, that represents a 5,000 to 1 split of each soul in the last 50,000 years, which is, like, a blip in the Earth's time. You know, so at best we're like these tiny fractions of people, you know, walking... I mean, is that why we're so scattered? You know, is that why we're all so specialized?
Breakup
You know what's the worst thing about somebody breaking up with you? Is when you remember how little you thought about the people you broke up with and you realize that is how little they're thinking of you. You know, you'd like to think you're both in all this pain but they're just like 'Hey, I'm glad you're gone'.
Answer must be in the attempt...
I believe if there's any kind of God it wouldn't be in any of us, not you or me but just this little space in between. If there's any kind of magic in this world it must be in the attempt of understanding someone sharing something. I know, it's almost impossible to succeed but who cares really? The answer must be in the attempt.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Mattered
Your whole life is ahead of you and you have big plans, big plans
you find your perfect match, the one that completes you, but as you get older,
you realize that its not always that easy,
its not until the end of your life that you realize that the plans you made are simply plans,
because at the end when you are looking back instead of forward,
you wanna believe that you made the most of what life gave you,
you wanna believe that you are leaving something good behind,
you wanted all to have mattered...
you find your perfect match, the one that completes you, but as you get older,
you realize that its not always that easy,
its not until the end of your life that you realize that the plans you made are simply plans,
because at the end when you are looking back instead of forward,
you wanna believe that you made the most of what life gave you,
you wanna believe that you are leaving something good behind,
you wanted all to have mattered...
Something better...
It’s been said that the saddest thing a man will ever face is what might have been. But what of a man whose faced with what was? Or what may never be? Or what can no longer? Choosing the right path is never easy. It’s a decision we make with only our hearts to guide us. But sometimes we find our way to something better. Sometimes we fight through the regret and remorse of our mistakes, our malice and our jealousy and the shame we feel for not being the people we were meant to be. And that’s when we find our way to something better. Or when something better finds its way to us.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Another Day...
He’s the first thing I think about everyday. How is he? Does he miss me like I miss him? How do I get him back? & then another day without him begins..
Sunday, April 20, 2008
True Love
Do u believe in true love? Its a big question, and its the only question left to ask.
Does this mean that theres only one person for each and everyone of us?
Its a total fairy tale made up by Madison avenue to sell cosmetics and by mothers to keep their daughters virtue. Frankly i felt sorry for all the women who have been bought into that myth.
Does this mean that theres only one person for each and everyone of us?
Its a total fairy tale made up by Madison avenue to sell cosmetics and by mothers to keep their daughters virtue. Frankly i felt sorry for all the women who have been bought into that myth.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Make a wish...
Make a wish & place it in your heart. anything you want - everything you want.
Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle, is gonna come from, the next smile, the next wish come true.
But if you believe that it's right around the corner...and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it...
You just might get the thing you're wishing for.
The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it?
Good. Now believe in it with ALL your heart.
Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle, is gonna come from, the next smile, the next wish come true.
But if you believe that it's right around the corner...and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it...
You just might get the thing you're wishing for.
The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it?
Good. Now believe in it with ALL your heart.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Echoes, Silence, Patience and Grace
I wish I could change some of the things about how I've acted in the last couple of years. I guess I'm just disappointed in myself. You know, i told xxxx that if he loved his fiance then i would learn to be okay with that, because i wanted him to be happy. But really i just wanted us to be happy, like me and him, then when he did marry her, I felt terrible, my heart is breaking right now. And i come in here, and i sit in silence and hear the echoes of who we used to be. And so I wish for patience and grace and strength to just let him be happy. And mostly I pray for the strength to not make his life worse because of what I want. Thats the toughest part, letting go, you know? That's the part of grace that really sucks.
Picture
You ever look a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other people's life have we been in. Were we a part of someone's life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died? Did we keep trying to get in, as if we were somehow destined to be there, or did the shot take us by surprise? Just think, you could be a big part of someone elses life, and not even know it.
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Memories
I feel as if I'm loosing the people around me, the most closest friends. They seem to have forgotten what we did and have been through together. It can be the most valueless thing. I take comfort in those things when my world is dark and grey. In a way I feel as I'm losing myself in other peoples memories, but they say that as long as you remember its all that matters. I'm just wondering will that be enough...
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Comet
It was more than just a comet because of what it brought to her life. Direction, beauty, meaning. There are many who couldn't understand and sometimes she walked among them. But even in her darkest hours, she knew in her heart that someday, it would return to her and her world would be whole again and her belief in God and love and art would be reawakned in her heart.
He said "I do"...
You can't! I'm sorry, i'm sorry but, you just, you can't. Because I love you and.. because you fixed my car! You remember that day? Because that day changed everything, and i just, I didn't know it at the time. But when you fixed my car you fixed my heart! And when you proposed to me 2 years ago I just wasn't ready. And I was lost and scared so I said someday but someday's now , it is. Someday is now and i love you. Please don't leave me again. People always leave.....
Atleast that's what I should have said. Instead I said nothing. And he said.. "I do."
Atleast that's what I should have said. Instead I said nothing. And he said.. "I do."
Dont give up just yet...
In life, if you let it, you can always come up with reasons to give up. But if you don't, you might just find love in places you never imagined. In a new relationship, or in your work, or in your children.
Whatever it is, just don't give up on it. And if you don't get it, well, you might get something better.
Whatever it is, just don't give up on it. And if you don't get it, well, you might get something better.
Monday, March 17, 2008
Broken
Blessed are the hearts that can bend they shall never be broken. but i wonder if there is no breaking and no healing and if theres no healing then theres no learning, then theres no struggle, but struggle is a part of life, so must all hearts be broken...
Lonely
When so many are lonely as seem to be lonely, it would be inexcusably selfish to be lonely alone ....
Someone will find you...
Someone trying to find their way. Someone trying to find their place. Someone trying to find their self. Sometimes it seems like you are the only one in the world who's struggling, who's frustrated, or unsatisfied, or barely getting by. But that feeling's a lie. And if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find you and make it all okay. Because we all need a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear the music in the world, to remind us that it won't always be this way. That someone is out there. And that someone will find you.
Yourself
To be nothing but yourself in a world which is doing
its best, night and day, to make you everyone else,
means to fight the hardest battle, which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting.
its best, night and day, to make you everyone else,
means to fight the hardest battle, which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting.
Crossroads
There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad, afraid, confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go baack.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Move forward or give up
there comes a time when every life goes off. in this desperate moment you must choose your direction. will you fight to stay on the path while otherstell you who you are? or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? or will you embrace your new path? each morning you chose to move foward or to simply give up..
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Act of love
I was reminded today in a roundabout way that the most perfect act of love is sacrifice. Bury your love for your friend. I love you. And I think I have since the first moment we locked eyes. And it's gonna suck, but if what you want is for me to let go, then I'm gonna do it. Be happy. I want that with all my heart.”
Paint over the door
This is gonna sound a little strange, but, I'd like you to paint over my old closet door. The thing is, there is never a time when you'll be more honest, when your convictions will be stronger, or when your motives will be more dearer than they are right now, which means you should chase whatever it is that excites you. Be confident and take risks. And paint over my words so you can start writing your own. My story may have inspired you, but I'm certain your story will inspire the next girl to live in our room. I want you to know, you don't need somebody to write about you in order for your life to mean something. You can write about yourself. Make your own destiny. Then, years from now, the next girl will keep what you write on that door long enough to remind you of how inspired your life is. And you can tell that girl to paint over the door, because you realize the words you wrote, the friends you had, the urgency you felt, will always be there underneath the paint. The love you professed will always be there. The spark of something undeniable. A seed of hope, the truth, for better or for worse, burning fiercely below the surface.
Sometimes
Sometime when you care about someone alot you just know you will make some kind of mistake and you end up losing the person you care the most about but if your lucky you might get a second chance .
Listen
You can find the good in anybody if you just give them a chance, benefit of the doubt. Sometimes people disappoint you, sometimes they surprise you, but you never really get to know them until you listen for what's in their heart.
Trying
This is just a place somewhere in the world … maybe it’s a lot like your world, maybe it’s nothing like it …But if you look closely you might see someone like you, someone trying to find their way, someone trying to find there place, someone trying to find their self.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Decides
Every once in a while people step up, they rise above themselves, sometimes they surprise you. Sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes it can push pretty hard, but if you look close enough you find hope, in the words of children and the bars of a song, and in the eyes of someone you love, and if your lucky, and if your the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back...
6,470,818,671
At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world.
Some are running scared.
Some are coming home.
Some tell lies to make it through the day.
Others are just now facing the truth.
Some are evil men, at war with good.
And some are good, struggling with evil.
Six billion people in the world, six billion souls.
And sometimes…all you need is one.
Some are running scared.
Some are coming home.
Some tell lies to make it through the day.
Others are just now facing the truth.
Some are evil men, at war with good.
And some are good, struggling with evil.
Six billion people in the world, six billion souls.
And sometimes…all you need is one.
The person you are
Once you lose yourself, you have two choices .. find the person you use to be or lose that person completely because sometimes you have to step outside of the person you've been and remember the person you were meant to be .. the person you wanted to be .. the person you are ..
Life
If having things turn out the way you wanted them to is the measure of a successful life, then some would say I'm a failure. The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that every day wont be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember it's only in the black of night that you can see the stars & those stars will lead you back home. So dont be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, because most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you wished for, or maybe you'll get more than you could have ever imagined. Who knows where life will take you...the road is long and in the end the journey is the destination.
Right answers
I know you want some answers, but what is the right answer?
Because there is no answer, its just life.
Because there is no answer, its just life.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Worst Day
Today is by far the worst day of my life.
You know, you think you know someone but they turned out to be the exact opposite of that.
I just can't imagine how i felt towards that person 3 years ago and i still feel the same way.
But the conversation we had today tops every worst day I've ever had.
I guess it's kinda my fault that i didn't actually or totally moved on with my life.
But never the less, they have. which eventually has to be my motive too.
i have never felt so much pain as I'm feeling right now...
You know, you think you know someone but they turned out to be the exact opposite of that.
I just can't imagine how i felt towards that person 3 years ago and i still feel the same way.
But the conversation we had today tops every worst day I've ever had.
I guess it's kinda my fault that i didn't actually or totally moved on with my life.
But never the less, they have. which eventually has to be my motive too.
i have never felt so much pain as I'm feeling right now...
Monday, February 11, 2008
Super - Successful Parents
Super-successful parents expect nothing less from their offspring. And when it comes to college, that means the Ivies. It's more than just getting into college, it's setting a course for the rest of your life. And those who aren't legacies are no exception. When parents have sacrificed for their children, what kid would want to let them down?
Family Vs Friends
Everyone knows that you cant choose your family but you can choose your friends. And in a world ruled by bloodlines and bank accounts, it pays to have a pal.
Appearances
What do we say about appearances "they can be deceiving". But most of the time
what you see is what you get.
what you see is what you get.
Finding me...
Sometimes you need to step outside, clear your head and remind yourself of who you are. And where you wanna be. And sometimes you have to venture outside your world in order to find yourself. Right now that's what i am trying to do.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
The Mayonnaise Jar and 2 cups of coffee
When things in your life seem
almost too much to handle,
when 24 hours in a day is not enough,
remember the mayonnaise jar
and 2 cups of coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class
and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
he picked up a very large
and empty mayonnaise jar
and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.
He then asked the students
if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of
pebbles and poured them into the jar.
He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open
areas between the golf balls.
He then asked
the students again
if the jar was full.
They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand
and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full.
The students responded
with an unanimous "yes."
The professor then produced
two cups of coffee from under the table
and poured the entire contents
into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.
"Now," said the professor,
as the laughter subsided,
"I want you to recognize that
this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things -
God, family, children, health,
friends, and favorite passions --
things that if everything else was lost
and only they remained,
your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter
like your job, house, and car.
The sand is everything else --
the small stuff.
"If you put the sand into the jar first,"
he continued,
"there is no room for
the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.
If you spend all your time
and energy on the small stuff,
you will never have room for
the things that are
important to you.
So...
Pay attention to the things
that are critical to your happiness.
Play with your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.
Play another 18.
There will always be time
to clean the house
and fix the disposal.
"Take care of the golf balls first --
the things that really matter.
Set your priorities.
The rest is just sand."
One of the students raised her hand
and inquired what the coffee represented.
The professor smiled.
"I'm glad you asked."
It just goes to show you that no matter how
full your life may seem,
there's always room for
a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."
almost too much to handle,
when 24 hours in a day is not enough,
remember the mayonnaise jar
and 2 cups of coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class
and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
he picked up a very large
and empty mayonnaise jar
and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.
He then asked the students
if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of
pebbles and poured them into the jar.
He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open
areas between the golf balls.
He then asked
the students again
if the jar was full.
They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand
and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full.
The students responded
with an unanimous "yes."
The professor then produced
two cups of coffee from under the table
and poured the entire contents
into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.
"Now," said the professor,
as the laughter subsided,
"I want you to recognize that
this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things -
God, family, children, health,
friends, and favorite passions --
things that if everything else was lost
and only they remained,
your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter
like your job, house, and car.
The sand is everything else --
the small stuff.
"If you put the sand into the jar first,"
he continued,
"there is no room for
the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.
If you spend all your time
and energy on the small stuff,
you will never have room for
the things that are
important to you.
So...
Pay attention to the things
that are critical to your happiness.
Play with your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.
Play another 18.
There will always be time
to clean the house
and fix the disposal.
"Take care of the golf balls first --
the things that really matter.
Set your priorities.
The rest is just sand."
One of the students raised her hand
and inquired what the coffee represented.
The professor smiled.
"I'm glad you asked."
It just goes to show you that no matter how
full your life may seem,
there's always room for
a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."
Friday, February 1, 2008
Attempt
I believe if there's any kind of God it wouldn't be in any of us, not you or me but just this little space in between. If there's any kind of magic in this world it must be in the attempt of understanding someone sharing something. I know, it's almost impossible to succeed but who cares really? The answer must be in the attempt.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Dissapointment
People are going to dissapoint you. I get that, I kinda expect that. But, I don't know, what if you wake up one day and realize you're the dissapointment?
Draw
I want to draw something that means something to someone. You know, I want to draw blind faith or a fading summer or... just a moment of clarity. It's like when you go and you see a really great band live for the first time, you know, and nobody's saying it but everybody's thinking it-- "We have something to believe in again." I want to draw that feeling. But, I can't. And if I can't be great at it then I don't want to ruin it. It's too important to me.
Missing
Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will.
Alone
Am I the reason people always leave? Am I the reason all these things keep happening to me? Maybe I'm just destined to be alone.
Happiness
Happiness comes in many forms.
In the company of good friends,
in the feeling you get when you make someone else’s dreams come true,
or in a promise of hope renewed.
It’s ok to let yourself be happy,
because you never know how great that happiness might be.
Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life,
that you expect it to always be there,
because you can’t remember a time in your life when it wasn’t.
But then one day you feel something else.
Something that feels wrong only because it’s so unfamiliar,
and in that moment you realize you’re happy.
In the company of good friends,
in the feeling you get when you make someone else’s dreams come true,
or in a promise of hope renewed.
It’s ok to let yourself be happy,
because you never know how great that happiness might be.
Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life,
that you expect it to always be there,
because you can’t remember a time in your life when it wasn’t.
But then one day you feel something else.
Something that feels wrong only because it’s so unfamiliar,
and in that moment you realize you’re happy.
Life
When life comes rushing at you out of the darkness who will you choose to face it with? Will it be someone you trust? Will they be wise? And will their love for you help them to guide you to the light, or will they lose their way in the darkness? Will they make noble choices? Or will that person be untested, someone new?
Life comes rushing at you from out of the darkness. When it does, is there someone in your life you can count on -- someone who will watch over you when you stumble and fall, and in that moment, give you the strength to face your fears alone?
Life comes rushing at you from out of the darkness. When it does, is there someone in your life you can count on -- someone who will watch over you when you stumble and fall, and in that moment, give you the strength to face your fears alone?
Change
If you could go back and change just one thing about your life, would you? and if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change ultimatily break your heart? or break the heart of another? would you choose an entirely different path? or would you change just one thing? just one moment. one moment that you always wanted back...
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