Cry

I guess we are having one of those fights again, where someone gets mad for saying something and eventually we make up, regretting everything that we have said and done. But somehow this feels different. It’s not like before, I guess for the first time, you were different.

Different, cause you don’t act this way often. Cause you were the one who always try to patch things up in the end, although it was my fault all along. But today it’s different. I kind of feel that you want to leave or you are just fed up of me. I know that I have given you a million reasons to do so.

Maybe you changed or maybe I did it on purpose so that you would change.
I know that I have changed somehow during the past couple of months. I guess something shattered inside of me and you are trying so hard to put the pieces back together. You don’t deserve this. You deserve someone better, someone worthy, someone who could love you and treat you right. Not someone like me, an opportunist, who tries to take advantage of every situation.

I know for sure that there is someone out there, waiting, just for you. Someone who doesn’t make you cry. You have become sick cause of me, the migraines that you keep getting every night, that’s because I come up with something to make you cry. I guess I am an expert at making people cry.

Forgiveness

Forgiveness is never easy. Bitterness is easy, Hatred is easy. But forgiveness, that is a tough one. Sometimes people say things they don't mean or do things they can't take back. Sometimes we do things we can't take back. We're all afraid of something. I was afraid, i was dying. But in the face of great despair, i had an epiphany ... What i have done is who i am. But what i have done is not who i will be. Its been nearly 26,297,438.3 seconds 7 304.84397 hours, 10 months and 23 days Since i realized what i have done is not who i can be. Unburden yourself from the mistakes of the past. And when you do, your heart grows stronger, i should know. Mine was supposed to go out a long time ago. But it doesn't mean that what you have done is forgotten and what you have done remembers.

Until i find you again ...

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Lost Love

The Five Stages Of Grief

(Kübler-Ross Model, 1969)

Denial



"I feel fine."; "This can't be happening, not to me."
Denial is usually only a temporary defense for the individual. This feeling is generally replaced with heightened awareness of situations and individuals that will be left behind after death.

Anger



"Why me? It's not fair!"; "How can this happen to me?"; "Who is to blame?"
Once in the second stage, the individual recognizes that denial cannot continue. Because of anger, the person is very difficult to care for due to misplaced feelings of rage and envy. Any individual that symbolizes life or energy is subject to projected resentment and jealousy.

Bargaining



"Just let me live to see my children graduate."; "I'll do anything for a few more years."; "I will give my life savings if..."
The third stage involves the hope that the individual can somehow postpone or delay death. Usually, the negotiation for an extended life is made with a higher power in exchange for a reformed lifestyle. Psychologically, the individual is saying, "I understand I will die, but if I could just have more time..."[

Depression



"I'm so sad, why bother with anything?"; "I'm going to die . . . What's the point?"; "I miss my loved one, why go on?"
During the fourth stage, the dying person begins to understand the certainty of death. Because of this, the individual may become silent, refuse visitors and spend much of the time crying and grieving. This process allows the dying person to disconnect oneself from things of love and affection. It is not recommended to attempt to cheer up an individual who is in this stage. It is an important time for grieving that must be processed.

Acceptance



"It's going to be okay."; "I can't fight it, I may as well prepare for it."
This final stage comes with peace and understanding of the death that is approaching. Generally, the person in the fifth stage will want to be left alone. Additionally, feelings and physical pain may be non-existent. This stage has also been described as the end of the dying struggle.