Dependency

i recently attended a birthday treat of one of my closest friends. all of her friends, her batch mates and i was there. i came late for the treat, but as i knew everyone who attended it, it really didn't make any difference. as i was sitting there in the middle of a restaurant with familiar faces, i was completely void. i felt so empty, so lonely and so devoid of emotion that i just felt like getting up and leaving. due to obvious reasons i couldn't do that. but all i did was have lunch and spend like half an hour with them, without uttering a so much as a word and left. its like i used be valued and now I'm not anymore. that kinda hit me hard. no one is there for you apart from yourself. you cant depend on others or anyone for anything.