Cry

I guess we are having one of those fights again, where someone gets mad for saying something and eventually we make up, regretting everything that we have said and done. But somehow this feels different. It’s not like before, I guess for the first time, you were different.

Different, cause you don’t act this way often. Cause you were the one who always try to patch things up in the end, although it was my fault all along. But today it’s different. I kind of feel that you want to leave or you are just fed up of me. I know that I have given you a million reasons to do so.

Maybe you changed or maybe I did it on purpose so that you would change.
I know that I have changed somehow during the past couple of months. I guess something shattered inside of me and you are trying so hard to put the pieces back together. You don’t deserve this. You deserve someone better, someone worthy, someone who could love you and treat you right. Not someone like me, an opportunist, who tries to take advantage of every situation.

I know for sure that there is someone out there, waiting, just for you. Someone who doesn’t make you cry. You have become sick cause of me, the migraines that you keep getting every night, that’s because I come up with something to make you cry. I guess I am an expert at making people cry.

Forgiveness

Forgiveness is never easy. Bitterness is easy, Hatred is easy. But forgiveness, that is a tough one. Sometimes people say things they don't mean or do things they can't take back. Sometimes we do things we can't take back. We're all afraid of something. I was afraid, i was dying. But in the face of great despair, i had an epiphany ... What i have done is who i am. But what i have done is not who i will be. Its been nearly 26,297,438.3 seconds 7 304.84397 hours, 10 months and 23 days Since i realized what i have done is not who i can be. Unburden yourself from the mistakes of the past. And when you do, your heart grows stronger, i should know. Mine was supposed to go out a long time ago. But it doesn't mean that what you have done is forgotten and what you have done remembers.